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Monday morning, Ulla Rademacher behaves as if the weekend never happened.

Which is fair, because technically nothing did. A few texts after one in the morning. Your answers, which you've reread enough times to have them memorized, which is embarrassing. Her last message, which you've also memorized, which is worse. Then nothing until Sunday night, when an email arrived with a calendar invite and no greeting: Board, Monday 10 a.m. You'll take minutes. Wear the black.

You don't own a black anything. You borrowed Waverly's funeral dress and pinned the waist.

At 9:58 Ulla walks past your desk without slowing down and says, "The dress is wrong. It'll do." And then, two steps later, without turning her head: "Did you eat breakfast."

"Yes."

"What."

"A croissant. My roommate makes them."

"Hm," she says, which you will spend the rest of the morning trying to translate.

The boardroom is on the fifth floor, the only room in the building with walls you can't see through. Dark oak, a long table, a window over the rooftops of Tribeca. Six chairs. Six board members, if you count Ulla, which everyone very carefully does.

You sit in the corner on a folding chair with your laptop on your knees.

Hallvard runs the meeting. He does it beautifully: unhurried, generous, laughing at his own small jokes so other people feel permitted to laugh. Two of the board are money people from his old firm, a woman in pearls and a man with a tan in February. One is an engineer, white-bearded, who says nothing for forty minutes. Phineas isn't a board member, but he's there "to present," in a navy suit, standing by a screen showing his Varick scheme.

"Three hundred units," Phineas says. "Thirty percent family-sized. Brick and bronze, so it sits comfortably in the neighborhood. The library's on the ground floor, very generous, double-height. We've costed it twice. It comes in under the Trust's budget."

It's good. You'd never admit it out loud, but it's good. Sensible, handsome, buildable. The library has nice big windows onto Varick Street.

"Thank you, Phineas," Hallvard says. "Ulla?"

Ulla hasn't sat down. She's at the window with her back half to the room.

"It's a very nice building," she says.

Phineas smiles.

"For a bank," she adds.

Phineas stops smiling.

"The library is a ground floor with big windows on the street." Ulla turns. "On Varick Street, between two existing buildings of twelve and fourteen stories, with your tower on top of it. It will get direct sun for approximately forty minutes a day in June. In December, none. You've designed a very generous basement."

"It's not a basement. It's at grade."

"Light doesn't care what floor you call it."

Hallvard raises a hand, pleasant. "Ulla. We've been here before. The board has seen your alternative. I'll be honest with you, as a friend: it frightens us."

"Good."

"It's a student scheme. From a slush pile. We don't know who drew it. We don't know if they can draw a fire stair. And it puts a hole down the middle of a forty-story tower." He spreads his hands. "Dr. Eze and the Trust gave us this commission because of your reputation. Because of our reputation. If we walk into that room with an anonymous fantasy and it fails, it doesn't fail quietly. It fails in the Times."

"It won't fail."

"You can't know that."

"I can," Ulla says. "I've built it. Four times. In the model shop at night, and in my head every night since November." She puts both hands flat on the table and leans in, and the whole room leans back slightly. "That building is the best thing anyone has sent this studio in eight years. Including me. I will build it, Hallvard, or I will build nothing on Varick Street."

Silence. You realize your fingers have stopped typing.

You type: U.R.: "I will build it or I will build nothing on Varick Street."

You hesitate. Then you leave it in.

The engineer with the white beard clears his throat. It's the first sound he's made.

"I'd like to see the full set," he says. "Not the summary. The boards."

The woman in pearls nods. The man with the tan shrugs. Hallvard's smile stays where it is, but something behind it recalculates.

"Fine," he says. "Tomorrow at nine. In your famous locked room. And then we vote." He turns to you, warmly. "Ava, you'll note that the board will review Entry 0412 in full on Tuesday and decide by end of week?"

"Yes, Mr. Aldane."

"Hallvard," he says, and winks, and you think of Phineas's wink on your first day and feel slightly sick.

After the meeting, Ulla walks down three flights of stairs instead of taking the elevator. You follow because you don't know what else to do. She doesn't speak until the second-floor landing, where she stops so suddenly you nearly walk into her back.

"The minutes," she says. "Read me what you wrote. My line."

You open your laptop on the landing. "'U.R.: I will build it or I will build nothing on Varick Street.'"

"Not paraphrased."

"No."

"Phineas's assistant paraphrases. Hallvard's minutes say I 'expressed strong reservations.'" Her mouth tightens. "I didn't express reservations. I said what I said."

"Then that's what it says."

She looks at you for a long moment in the dim stairwell. Up close, she smells like cold air and something dry and expensive, like cedar or paper. There's a faint crease between her brows that you're starting to recognize as exhaustion rather than anger. She's so beautiful it's almost a structural problem. You can't look directly at her for too long; it's like looking at the sun reflected in a glass tower.

"Have you seen it?" you ask. "I mean. Of course you've seen it. I mean, what's it like? 0412?"

The crease softens. It's the first time you've seen her face change for something that isn't a mistake.

"It's honest," she says.

That's all. She starts down the stairs again.

At 6:40 that evening, the studio's half empty, the light outside gone navy. You're printing the board agenda when a shadow falls over your desk.

Ulla sets something down next to your keyboard. A small brass key on a loop of black ribbon.

"The keypad on the review room only works from inside after eight," she says. "This opens the door. It's the only one. Ziva doesn't have one. Hallvard doesn't have one. Phineas tried for two months to get one."

You stare at it.

"I have a dinner with the Trust I cannot cancel," she says. "I won't be back tonight. The boards are rolled in the flat file, drawer three. Fourteen of them. The order is written on the back of each. Pin them up for the nine o'clock. Even spacing. Level." She pauses. "Do not touch the model."

"I won't."

"I know." She's already turning away, already pulling on her black coat. Then she stops and looks back over her shoulder, and for one second she looks less like a glacier and more like someone handing over the keys to her house.

"Be careful with it, Ava," she says quietly. "It's the only one."

She's gone before you can ask whether she meant the key or the building.